Dreaming of a White Christmas? Whatever...

So, once again, second year in a row. I got to spend Christmas Eve and Christmas night at the airport. Tonight has been a night to forget to say the least. The snow started at 7:04 pm. By 7:13 p.m. it was a mess out here. As of about an hour ago, we have received eight (!!!!) inches of snow at the airport. Compared to 16 inches in some locations in the Salt Lake Valley, its not so bad. I was just looking at the traffic cameras, and the roads are a mess, so I'm figuring that I will get home from work by 8:30. Dammit all....again. At least I was at the snow desk tonight and not out on the field. Nice and warm up here......

Tag

Yet another post maliciously stolen from Erin's Blog....

One word tag
Answer using only one word.....

1. Where is your cell phone? Encased
2. Your significant other? Beloved
3. Your hair? Ugly
4. Your Mother? Mom
5. Your Father? Dad
6. Your favorite thing? Sleep
7. Your dream last night? Nightmare
8. Your favorite drink? Dew
9. Your dream/goal? Reconnected
10. The room you're in? Dull
11. Your hobby? Photography
12. You fear? Myself
13. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Peaceful
14. Where were you last night? Work
15. What you're not? Happy
16. Muffin? Blueberry
17. One of your wish list items? Peace
18. Where you grew up? California
19. The last thing you did? Cried
20. What are you wearing? Shoes
21. Your TV? Old
22. Your pets? Yuppers
23. Your computer? Slow
24. Your life? Chaotic
25. Your mood? Disassociated
26. Missing someone? Terribly
27. Your car? Old
28. Something your not wearing? Sunglasses
29. Your summer? Hot
30. Like someone? Tremendously
31. Your favorite color? Purple
32. When was the last time you laughed? Forgot
33. Last time you cried? Today

Eight Things

So.....I came across this on Erin's blog - it is really giving me cause to think right now.

8 Favorite TV Shows (in no particular order)

1) House
2) Cops
3) NASCAR Races
4) Major League Baseball
5) M*A*S*H*
6) The Biggest Loser
7) Extreme Makeover Home Edition
8) Local News


8 Things I Did Yesterday

1) Called my sister to tell her Happy Birthday
2) Went to a long Staff Meeting
3) Rode the train
4) Cried
5) Slept (not nearly enough)
6) Sang
7) Felt sad
8) Awakened to nightmares several times

8 Things I Look Forward To

1) Sleep without nightmares
2) The Tabernacle Christmas Concerts
3) Feeling better
4) Springtime
5) Time with Erin
6) Being skinny again
7) Regaining control of my life
8) Going on vacation

8 Favorite Restaurants

1) Wendy's
2) Taco Bell
3) Dragon Diner
4) Arby's
5) Cafe Alicia
6) Cafe Rio
7) Cancun Cafe
8) Red Robin

8 Things on my wish list

1) Having the house done
2) Finding the missing camera
3) Photography trip
4) Going back to school
5) Nightmares going away for good
6) Learning to accept me for who I am
7) Being grateful for my family
8) Scuba diving trip to Nicaragua

8 People to Tag

1) Erin
2) Mark
3) Darwin
4) Lol
5) Gary
6) Kirk
7) Hal
8) John

One Very Unrelated Post

So....I have to preface this post with a warning: this post shares some very strong feelings. Names have been changed to protect the innocent, and not so innocent.

Here we go.....................................

My best friend in the world that I am not married to (read: my sister) is sitting at the other computer next to me working on some mandatory training for her employment. The topic of the mandatory training is abuse and domestic violence. In the course of her employment, she gets to deal with victims of these horrible crimes on a regular basis.

I just have to share the following with the world: THERE IS NO EXCUSE FOR ABUSING A CHILD. It is one think to spank a child for misbehaving. It is another thing to cause permanent bodily injury. With the children, you don't always see the injuries - many of them are in their minds. A child's outlook on life is so pliable, and it is so easy to mess them up. I hate child abuse.

The other thing that I cannot stand is domestic violence. I have watched a very close friend of mine struggle with this issue time and time again. This person is repeatedly damaged by their partner. Unfortunately, it seems to be easier for this person to stay in this relationship rather than leave..

I do not claim to be the perfect spouse in the world. I know that in times past, I have been a horrible partner and a terrible example of what a person should do when it comes to treating their partner. I struggle with a temper every day of my life, along with many other things. Gratefully most days it does not get the best of me.

Taking Responsibility

So I'm done trying to solve everyone else's problems. I have enough that I have to deal with right now. Now, that's not saying that I'm not going to help everyone out still--that is not going to change. I'm only going to take responsibility for what is mine, and to hell with the rest. If it's my fault, then it's my problem. If it's not my fault, then I don't care, I'm not taking ownership or responsibility any more. It simply takes too much energy, and I am about out of reserve energy. I don't remember a time in my life when I felt this tired all the time. It blows....big time.

Rules for Gaveyard Shift Survival

I have had several people ask me how I manage to live this backward life of the graveyard shift. So, I decided to post a few of my rules here, hoping that they may be of benefit to someone on this planet. If you have any additional rules that you think should be added, please comment on this post and I will definitely consider adding them at a later time...........here we go.

#1. The day is not over, and the new day does not begin, until you wake up. e.g. right now by a calendar standard, it is 0300 on Monday morning. However, it is still SUNDAY NIGHT.

#2. The two hour rule: when I come home from work, I get to sleep for a minimum of two hours, uninterrupted. Exceptions: kids have to go to school, house is on fire, one of the kids has a laceration that will require staples or sutures, or the dog has eaten the cat for a midmorning snack.

#3. Perfect the sleeping area. You should have the following: a fan, blackout curtains, a door that closes, earplugs, and plenty of blankets and pillows. The fan will make lots of white noise, which will block out the everyday sounds. Blackout curtains help fool your body into going right to sleep when you get home. A door that closes to keep the kids and animals out of your sleeping area as much as possible. Significant others are permitted at all times.

#4. Earplugs - keeps the kids and animals out of your head.

#5. TURN OFF THE PHONE!!!!!! There is nothing worse than a phone ringing all day long. I am very fortunate in that I have two cell phones. I turn off the ringer on my personal cell phone when I go to bed. I leave my work cell phone on all the time. That way, if there is a problem, the Mrs. has a way to get a hold of me, as does the school if my oldest decides to stuff himself in a gym locker again. If your mom or dad calls, IGNORE IT. Corollary: call them 12 hours later than they call you, especially around 0200. It only takes about once, and it won't happen again.

#6. If you live in an area with a lot of people that come to your door on a regular basis, you may want to try a sign on the front door with something similar to this wording: "One of the residents that lives here works a night shift schedule. Please do not ring the doorbell or knock on the door"

#7. Avoid coffee/caffeine after midnight...there are a ton of studies on this one. Avoid the Cherry Coke at 0300. Walk around your desk or work area instead.

#8. (one of my personal favorites). Get an iPod (or something like it). Load up a CD with music that is relaxing to you, and that will help you right now. Example.....right now, Hoobastank is playing on my iPod as I'm typing this - not the best choice for nappy time. Load up the Norah Jones or the Beethoven, and you are in business.

#9. The most important one....GET A ROUTINE DOWN AND STAY WITH IT. Here is part of mine. When I get home about 0530, Abby (the cat) usually meets me by the front door. I stop and give her a little love after I take off my boots and leave them next to the door. I look into the kids' bedrooms, and then head back to our bedroom. I brush my teeth, and then rub my face with cold water three times, up and down and pat dry with my big fluffy towel. If anything else needs doing while in the bathroom, then do it now. Having a full bladder wake you up just sucks. Change into comfy pajamas and head for bed. Sometimes make a quick email check or update my Facebook status, other times just get under the blankets. I always tap the Mrs. and let her know that I am home and in bed. Sometimes it's just a sleepy okay, other times its a kiss...her call. But I always tell her. The one time that I didn't let her know, I was still sore a week later.

The New Blog is Open

Well....it's done. I have switched over blogging sites. It'll be interesting to see how long it takes before someone notices. I really don't care if they do. That's not my problem. I can only accept responsibility for what is my problem. If I try to solve everyone's problems then I am right back to where I am at this very moment. So.......

Here is a little background. It's 0150 where I am right now. Some of you would say that it is Monday morning. However, it is still Sunday night (rule #1 of the graveyard shift). It is my first day off of my weekend...confused yet? Good!!!! Welcome to my life. Sure, I would like to be in bed right now, laying next to the Mrs., but that' s kinda hard to do when you are wide awake and she is not. Oh yeah.....the joys of days off when the other half of the relationship works opposing shifts.

So yes, this blows. I would love to be asleep right now, but that's impossible, at least for another few minutes, until the medication kicks in. Now that is a topic for another post in and of itself....that could spark a rather interesting debate.